did you see...2 fondues!!

dunno why suddenly today jio Wongsan for dinner... oh! I promised him~ Cos I made him sick last Friday nite, (he still haven't recovered) and he was joking about treating him at places such as Tony Romas or Swenson's as compensation. I do take jokes seriously, haha.. and I did promise him also. On top of that, I was supposed to treat him after my first pay, which was backdated to when I was working at HP... hmm... quite a lot of debt huh....

Took a walk from Engineering to Kent Ridge terminal to take bus 10.. I have this fetish of walking around campus...Hmm.. the bus went pass Wongsan's work place, interesting. I purposely set off early cos long bus rides are hard to estimate the ETA. You won't believe what an oddball like me will do. I actually went to Esplanade to study. So I was there sitting at the concourse, reading my Sociology textbook and taking down notes on my chief-clerk-&-3SG Chow-style rough paper. Quite a nice environment to study actually, cos there are peformance at the concourse if you are lucky/unlucky.

Wongsan cares for my wallet quite a lot, so we didn't end up at Tony Romas or Swensons. Hmm after one round around the Fountain and one round around Sky Garden, we decided to eat at Swiss Culture. And coincidentally enough, we sat at the same table as the previous time, and same sitting arrangement. Hmm... I had a pasta with clams.. which was edible, minus the shells and the knife and the fork.... the shells took some effort, so not too suitable for lazy/clumsy people like me.

We did see something horrible... 2 different tables of 2, ordering 2 fondues each!! The cheese fondue was quite bad, as in the smell crossed border and reached my nose. How on earth people manage to eat 2 fondues?!?! (I think Wongsan would very much like to try..)
Haha, my first time charging to my NUS card~ Wongsan was telling me, it feels cool to use your card right? Hmm.. true... but it is like eating at Marche or Village, if you just keep eating and eating, you may eat until your pocket goes empty.

My brother was telling me to use my card wisely, when he himself seem to use his to buy some unnecessary gadget. C'mon, it took me a month to decide on buying a kubricks.

IPC..

IPC= India, Pakistan, China... 3 rising powers of the world...
That's just a lame joke from my Critical Thinking & Writing group. There are 20 odd students in the tutorial class, and we were supposed to form groups of 2-3. Always being the weirdo, I joined the only Indian(Redzwan) in the class and the only Sikh(Ameet Singh) in the class... thus IPC, oh I'm the C.

Today met up with them to discuss the group assignment. Dug our brains out to decide on the topic, and at last (about 30 minutes) chose the topic that we are going to do. Spliting the work is like "India will do this part, Pakistan will do this part, China will......" Redzwan actually just recovered from dengue fever, and told us about a person needs to get dengue fever 4 times before turning immune to it. I guess before you get the thrid one you are already dead... (cos each time the effect is worse than before)

Wasn't quite happy with the Sociology tutorial. Actually it is my fault that I didn't quite prepare for the lesson, thus couldn't hand in the work. Just don't know why I feel upset. Upset about myself? Maybe... or is it like a person stealing things from a shop and still has the cheek to blame the shopkeeper for catching him/her?
That's bad... where have my moral values gone?

problem solving... the climbers' way

Hmm.. actually originally I wasn't that happy today, cos I discovered I lost my gold Faders carabiner. Nevermind, maybe it has clipped itself onto my sad memories and be gone~ Now I've estalished with a group of NUS climibng kakis, and quite crazily we had been trying to complete Ronghui's route at the tsunami wall. (oh.. sweat coming back on my palm) Really enthusiastically discussed the route~ Sean was quite shocked that I seem to enjoy belaying. (oh Andy kept bothering Kelvin to open up the "big" wall) Weird that I can take charge of people's life but can't take charge of my own. Was kinda scary when Jenny offered to belay me. Please I don't want to downclimb again. Well... couldn't quite take it Sean and Jenny were bitching around.. c'mon I was waiting for them to gear up and climb on... want to "park tall" go somewhere else lah...

Haha there are a few caucasians climbers as well, Greg and Co. The most funny thing that happened to me today is that caucasian girl borrowed chalk from me. She dipped her hand into my chalkbag and started.. ermm.. patting my butt... the feeling was kind of kinky.. but.... ermm..

Wasn't that bad of a climbing nite, just that I feel that the seniors should be interacting more with the yr1s rather than discussing routes among themselves, themselves as in the team. Afterall they have their training days. Tuesday is Chalkday, for club members. Do they want to scare away the already large population of sleeping members?

fate is playing with me

Today I went to see my father off at the airport. It has always been me sending him off at Changi cos I know how to arrange my time. (just happened today I have no lessons, so I suggested that he fly today so I can see him off) Nah, no emotional breakdown or wad, since we are used to living apart for...12 years? Anyway, if he stays longer, my parents will start quarreliing again.

Hmm.. no lessons, but nevertheless I went back to NUS for CLIMBING! I must be mad. Must be. Anyway since I'm using student concession, so I took bus all the way back to campus. I always have this feeling that things are so coincidental. The paths that I take are always the same paths that are related to some of my sad past. Bus 36 goes from Changi, goes by ECP. This route must have been taken by someone whom I cared.(note, past tense) Wrong, even the tiles that I have stepped on at the airport itself.. must have been stepped on by her as well. Then the bus went pass Mountbatten Rd, the place where he stays and she stayed during her vacation here. I just have this bad nature of linking things up.

Dropped off at Suntec to change to bus 10. (ok not the day for toy shop) While waiting, a young chap from Cedele Depot approached me and ask if bus 16 goes to Great World City. Well, I have no reason to know the answer, since I don't live near Suntec, I DON'T live near landed properties at Mountbatten Rd, and I don't live near Great World. Hmm so I asked him did he check the directory on the pole, and check for Kim Seng Rd. (I just know it is at Kim Seng, don't ask why) He walked back to check and Bingo! My bus came first, before I boarded I waved a bye to him (I dunno why I did that too, I'm supposed to be cool) and he waved back and thanked me. He seemed to be in a rush and very grateful for my help. Anyway, feeling very happy now cos I've done a good deed~!

Aww.. the bus went pass Alexandra, and I could almost see the building I was working at while with HP. Coincidentally, I was listening the same Kelly Chen songs on the same MP3 player as the time when I tried to beat off my morning blues on my way to work. I better stop linking things up.

hmm when I reached home, father also just reached home in HK.
Talking about coincidence.

marrying an Engineer

haha, saw this post in the Ectalking.com... wanna share this with you guys, and at the same time practise my translation skill.

Engineer:
before you choose a husband, please compare with other occupations.

Doctor:
Almost all females go for doctors. So don't expect to be together for more than 5 yrs as one day he will surely run away with a nurse or some fake patients.
On the other hand this won't happen to an engineer, as he doesn't even have time to see you, let alone seeing other women.

Lawyer:
Can you trust someone who lives off telling lies? You don't have to worry about your engineer husband, since his pathetic social skill makes his lie nowhere to hide.
On top of that, in the event of a divorce, your lawyer husband will surely win, leaving not even a penny behind for you.

Promoter:
His creditablity is worse than a lawyer. He will always have to attend courses and meeting people of the same creditablity as him.
Your engineer husband will be confined to his tiny cubicle and has nowhere to go to other than home.

Teacher:
The only reason why a man chooses to teaching is because of those young cute students who blindly crowd around him. Soon he will be in jail for having sex with a minor.

Other jobs:
They are too dangerous. If your husband didn't die or become disable, chances are he will become impotent, during the height of your needs!
The only danger an engineer will get is poor vision from staring at the computer screen whole day long. The good thing is when you grow old, he won't be able to see how ugly you have become, and his good memory will ensure he remembers the young pretty face of yours. And when you suspect he is looking at other girls, actually he can't even make out their face!

other good things about marrying an engineer:
Engineers don't groom. You don't need to tidy your home.
Engineers have difficulty finding gf. So he will always be loyal to you.
Engineers are boring. They live in a world of charts and diagrams. You don't need much to please him.
Engineers enjoy fixing things. So when you start throwing things at him, he will be more than happy to fix them back again.
Engineers have high IQ. So your child will be smart and you can show off to your neighbours.
Engineers spend more time researching. So after marriage you still have a lot of freedom.
Engineers are poor in speech, so you can win him in a quarrel.
Engineers believe in logic. So if you are logical, he will respect you. If you ain't logical, don't talk to him about logic and he won't be able to handle you.
Engineers earn quite a lot. He doesn't spend, so you can spend for him.
Engineers just have no charm. So no harm marrying one.

pengz... ridiculously funny. So should we still feel proud we are engineers/engineering students?

closing Pandora's box

*let me be honest, overdue blogs lose quite a lot of the real taste.

Ok I purposely separate this one from the previous one is because this one is very meaningful, although it is still about Friday.

I was having lunch at Techno Edge when Alex asked if I would like to go to the Spook Show and find out about "answers" that I have been searching. Wow.. ANSWERS!! I love answers, especially when the outcome only has a postive effect on me.

Blah blah so whatever went on before the show, you can refer to my previous post..

Oh Alex's colleague/friend Si Ni and her bf Caden were going for the show as well~ haha Si Ni was quite surprised that I could tell it was her queueing up at the stall when I went to meet them at the foodcourt. As I would be having dinner together with Alex, so I watched the 2 of them have their food. Guess they felt kinda weird, having to entertain me and eat.

Ok back to the Spook Show 2005. At first didn't know it was organized by a church. Funny eerie atmosphere in the convention hall... with Alex walking around dressing up as a ghost... The magic tricks were really breathtaking. As a engineering student, of cos I know the pastor was wearing a rubber chest and pulling out a rubber heart, but I still feel glad I didn't eat anything before going in. All the while my hands were covering my mouth and Si Ni looked at me with that amused look.~_~ EEK... all those cutting of forearm, cutting head...cutting body.... like I say my logical half can't convince my emotional half. Actually I felt quite special watching the show with a "ghost" sitting beside me. Deeply honoured.

The pastor is a funky one I must say. Where can you find a pastor performing magic? (ok, pastor singing pop songs is lame enough) The Spook show seem to aim at being entertaining, but look at it closely and one will realize it is educating, aim at telling us that whatever tricks "demonic" organism can perform, other people can duplicate. Haha "magicians tell you that they are bluffing you before they go on to bluff you..."

Actually the most meaningful part was when all the magic was over and the pastor talked about Jesus. I was really touched and could feel some sourness when I closed my eyes and bowed my head. There was this sense of serenity in my heart. I could feel that the vacumn was filled.

But I don't want to be child of Jesus. I believe that I can draw strength and wisdom from various religions. Haha but like Alex said while we were eating at NYDC after the show, I'm so weird! It is like, other people believe in the genie and call for him when in need, whereas I don't believe in the genie, but still call for him when in need. So similar to what Joanne said to me!! I found a lot of answers. But whether they are the right answers will depend on how I interpret them. But I feel much better after the show. Now I'm a sheep that isn't as astray as before.

Thanks everyone for the prayer.

older but no wiser

Has been kinda busy since Friday, and there are so many happenings during this period. Now I truly understand how people can write entry/ies everyday. I shall break it up into Friday part 1, part 2 and Saturday.

Friday.. hmm... has been full of coincidence. Met Alvin the team captain outside LT 7A. He looked kinda neutral when I waved hi to him. But later at night when i was having meal with Wongsan at NYDC, I saw him again! This time round, maybe because he was walking with his gf, he seemed much friendlier than in the morning~ Guess that is what Chinese call it 天时, 地利, 人和.

At lunch time, met QX while walking down to Techno Edge. She seemed kinda surprised that I recognised her from the back. She's in year 3 Mechanical Engineering, and offers to help me~ haha so sweet of her! Later I met her again at the bus stop!! haha it was so sweet when she waved back to me after she had boarded the bus..=)

I went to Peninsula to take a walk, since it was still early to meet Wongsan. Went to Allsports to look at harness. That guy is still that stuck-up. But I got myself a Petzl catalogue. I just love to collect outdoor gear catalogues! Come to my house and you will see piles of them. Then went to Outdoor Specialist. The uncle was busy counting money, and harness is no where to be found.. so..
Then went to a toy shop on the second floor. Hmm.. I just love to visit toy shops whenever I feel moody, afterall there's a kid in everyone's heart. Saw some interesting toys called 4-D puzzle. What is the fourth dimension?
Then, went to Campers' Corner. Wow, my Mad Rock is selling at $147 now! But my pair really serves me well. The stupid sales kind of forced me to buy such a ridiculously small pair.. haha! Oh I saw a Nalgene bottle going at $50! The normal size wide mouth one, but with super nice pattern. $50 to hold water? $20 is more than enough heart-pain for me.

I made my way to Suntec.. saw Kai Feng's gf outside the candy store!! haha she is so cute so funny! She only remembers me as that climbing guy, not as Alex's friend.. ermm.. haha... ok..
Then... went to third level to Hobby Point and Toy Room! haha I was drown in the sea of toys!
I shall continue the next part later... The Spook Show!! As for now, let me share something I saw outside St Andrew Catheral:

Jesus said, "Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest." Mark 6:31

spiritual pillar

This morning came to school, looked at the grey sky while walking towards Block EA, looking for answers...

Recently have been looking for answers. Answers to tutorials, answers to queries, answers to life.
I was thinking, should I turn to God? I'm not a believer. I've never been. But the weird thing is, there was a point of time I had been reading the Holy Bible. That was during my days in OCS when I would be reading the Holy Bible whenever I was free, and my instructors wouldn't dare to disturb me. On the other hand, my brother is a Christian. But he doesn't read the Bible.
I just wish to borrow God's power. Something to lean on whenever I feel like collapsing. Something to hang on to whenever I feel like falling.

Joanne was telling me, it is such a pity that I know how powerful God is, but yet not willing to believe in Him.

Oh, David Yan was telling me how God showed him the bad side of the girl he likes, Angel. David was asking if Angel would like to join the fellowship brothers and sisters to his home for a gathering this Sunday, and Angel's reply was that she is having a course on Sunday. Then David went to Angel's blog and realize Angel is planning to go Ocean Park this very Sunday. On top of that, David discovers Angel has been gambling, not something that a Christian would do...
God showed him the answer.

Do I need help from God to find my answers?

to Nicole Ho

Sigh.... I think this is the last thing I can do for you: to read your blog.

You still don't get it, do you? It's not about you. No one puts the blame on you, not at all. I apologize if you feel accused.
It's about me. My over-sensitiveness. My inability to face the truth.
Yes, I'm contradicting with myself cos I'm reasoning with myself, trying to convince myself.
Precisely, I've been making myself suffer, that's why I need to do something about it.
I just feel unfair for you if I can't treat you as a normal friend. Don't you want a genuine friend?

I'm sorry if this makes you upset. Please don't feel upset in any way. It's not worth it.
Ho Tsz Wing, live happy. Live every moment of you life to the fullest. My best wishes go to you

Belief ≠ Behaviour

Today's lecture starts at 8am, so... gotta wake up in the wee hours of the morning. Hmm was about to board the bus when someone patted me from behind.. Rockey!! Weird, he is supposed to take another bus.. oh he missed the other bus and so had to change bus at my stop. Haha knew him for close to 20 years.. so.. can say that I saw him grow up. Oh now he's in J2 in Hwa Chong, and could see him busy munching notes even on the bus. Even the families gathering seldom see him attending. Well.. I'm sure he will get good grades in his big A.

Was reading something from my Sociology notes again. It's about foreigners and their encounters with Thai bar girls.

...many would like to extend the liaison beyond their departure; but they are also aware that the girls worked in bars when they had first met, and will probably return there again to engage in sexual liaisons with other men...the correspondents do not usually share a wirtten language...The farangs' basic dilemma is created by their desire to maintain an intimate relationship at a distance...
---Erik Cohen, 1996

I find this freaking lame!! (and a bit related to my case, minus the prostitution part)First, they don't share a same language. Ok I can understand some relationships do work out that way, but... you mean you need a translator 24/7? Another lame thing, these foreigners (aka farangs) must be desperate. They go to Thailand, had a fun night with the bar girl(aka public toilet), and dream of having her for the rest of his life. C'mon, the girls only want money. MONEY! The guy can have one girl, but that girl must be having dunno god knows how many guys!! These kind of relationship is purely exploitary. C'mon earthlings, wake up your idea!! (*bang my own head*)

Alvin actually came down to NUS to promote his *scape thingy, and as usual, he would want me to help him (still remember that time he asked me out to SFT to carry hampers for him)Haha but afterall, friends shouldn't be so calculative, and I did give ideas for his *scape thingy. Oh saw Yong Quan beside our booth, selling flip-flop for some charity.. haha Yong Quan and I had some shouting at each other like fishmongers in a market.. but that was fun. But I had to run all the way from Arts Faculty to attend my lecture at Engineering Fac. Well.. can't blame Alvin, cos I volunteered.

Was changing bus at Bukit Timah when a middle-age man eyed me in a funny manner. Finally he spoke! (wow miracle)
Man:"Where are you going?" (in Mandarin)
Child: "Why leh?" (sharks I broke the Rules of Engagement: I talked to stranger!)
M: "Oh I want to know 154 got go MacPherson or not"
C: "151 got go"
M: "What bus are you taking?"
C: "Why leh?"
M: "Oh I want to go to that 24 hr coffee shop at MacPherson. Just hope someone going that way then can ask"
C: "151 got go lor"
M: "Where to take 151?"
C: "Here lah!" (for goodness'sake I alighted from 151)
Then my bus came.... (of cos not 151.. I take 74/852) Not that I'm not willing to help or I'm unfriendly or I've attitude problem, but sometimes we got to be cautious. The war against terrorism needs everyone's effort. If he pulls a fast one I'll make it his last one.

Human beings are so weird.
(oh that belief not equal to behaviour thingie is Sociology stuff..e.g. my belief is I must be nice and caring and etc, but my behaviour this afternoon shows that I can be a bastard if you make me to. Another example is, I believe friends are forever, love is temporary, but my behaviour tells me that if being friends are so painful, might as well don't have such friends)

Marching on.

Suddenly feel so free. Finally I've listened to Wongsan and Edwin to cut clean. CLEAN. MSN, ICQ, email, Friendster.... *del*
Was kinda sour when I wanted to look at her profile for one last time.... 3 big words.. "in a relationship". It wasn't there the previous time I looked at her profile. Nevermind, just a declaration, just like telling people you are 302.... i.e. don't touch me.

Haha people in the forum were telling me things like thinking bad things about her, like linking her to sow, etc etc, but, that would be so immoral. Just because you can't reach it means the grape is sour?

I was reluctant to forget about her cos I knew her for quite a long time. If I just cut clean, I may feel regret about it. Afterall she had shared her happy times and sad times with me, asked me homework, asked me opinions.... (yeah you might say why she ask me so many things yet don't make me her...ermm...special one. I thought so too)

It is like rock climbing. If you don't let go, you can't go for the higher tiles/holds. If you are afraid of falling, even standing in a bathtub may seem dangerous. But I think my lack of competitiveness is due to my fear of failure. I always think that not trying means you won't fail(neither will you succeed)Now, am I a quitter? They say quitter never wins. No wonder.

Right now, I don't want to think so much about it. Just want to flush it down the toilet bowl..

Thanks guys. I will remember it, clean cut.

You've just been erased.

This is a telecom annoucement service. The number you've just dialled, is not in use. Thank you.

To whom it may concern:

Sorry I have to do this. Though we have come thus far, but dragging on does no good to anyone.
My friends deserve better from me.

Night-bloody-mare

(-_-#) Before I say anything, let's look at what was my nightmare...

I was walking with her, side by side, (I think it was after school, c'mon
you ain't supposed to remember your dreams) then suddenly she reached for my hand. I looked at her in shock, and I think she hinted something (that's such an obvious hint) Then it started to rain and we went for the shelter... at the shelter, I hugged her tightly in my arms.....

*pop!* What the hell... why must such dream appear in my sleep???? There was zero logic in the whole thing. Is it true that what you think in your day time, will appear in your dream land? 日有所思, 夜有所梦?

Maybe cos I was tired from last night's bouldering at the club. Or maybe cos I went to read her blog AGAIN and felt sad about it... Or maybe because of the chat I had with Edwin.
Maybe I should listen to Wongsan and cut clean. But I don't want to feel regret after it.. it is like, I've come thus far to maintain the so-called friendship with her, I don't want to lose it. Last night her MSN nick wrote "aiii", so I thought something must be bothering her, and out of pure care and concern I messaged her.. oh she was watching TV, and at the end I still couldn't find out the reason for that "aiii". Again, out of pure care and concern I went to read her blog.. surprise surprise.. new entry, with some name mentioned... well done.

See? This is what I mean by not wanting to know the truth.
Nevermind, let's talk about what happened in school. Saw quite a lot of faces in campus yesterday, Wei Bin, CSM (company's shortest man), MK... oh, I was surprised CSM knows my birthday~ must be Friendster's fault..

Last night went to boulder at the rock gym. It was the team selection as well~ but I didn't go for the selection, just climb around with the seniors lor~ I must be the only odd ball around, since everyone else was so keen on joining the team. Haha one of the team member was saying my Rock On singlet was more senior than his. Had fun with Kaiyin setting routes for me~ Oh she was my junior at ODAC, but within these yrs she improved so much! So KS, who was my senior in ODAC, was teasing me by asking Kaiyin to show her senior(i.e. me) how to climb... diao... ok my legs are long, I can't drop knee....

I took a glimpse at the selection routes, and was telling myself I could've easily passed all those. But I've told myself clearly, Team is not my goal in the club, climbing is. Got a feeling I will be the only enthusiast who isn't in the team.

Oh Edwin chatted with me about some statics problem, which both of us are studying.. quite interesting exercise for my dumb brain.. haha.. and Edwin also talked about his relationship... C'mon live strong Edwin.. munching books will help delete our sad past!!

finally found some purpose...

Yes! I went to tutorial prepared! Haha I did the tutorial questions beforehand and feel that I'm actually being proactive. It was physics (but the questions were more like maths!! Why would physics ask for integration!!) Although there were some questions that I dunno how to do, but at least I prepared!! So during tutorial I don't feel like a dodo~ in fact it is easier to spot the things that I missed out, and pick up some problem solving skills.

Ok ok... reality is, this is only the first physics tutorial... I remember I was equally enthusiastic during my first 3 months in college... subsequently the flame died off........

NO! I must keep the fire burning! Firstly, I must get rid of that girl on my mind.. To Excel I will, To Overcome I Must!! ermm.. but why did I waste one whole afternoon in the computer lab surfing for nothing in particular...=(

Anyway, got to know some of my classmate... YES there is a girl!! She has the same surname as me!! "Ah, Chow ah Chow..." eek.... ok lah she is Kai, a friend of my fellow ODACian... she was from Nanyang Girls High...

No no no no.. I said NO girls!!! Cannot!!! ok then I should look at aunties more...

The Color Code

Definitely Blue
Congratulations, S H, you are a BLUE personality. The Core Motivation that drives you through life is "Intimacy". It is important to note that this does not mean sexual intimacy. BLUES need connection - the sharing of rich, deep emotions that bind people together. As a BLUE, you will often sacrifice a great deal of time, effort, and/or personal convenience to develop and maintain meaningful relationships throughout your life.

BLUES seek opportunities to genuinely connect with others, and need to be understood and appreciated, especially by their partner. Everything you do as a BLUE has to be quality-based, or you won't do it at all. You are incredibly loyal to friends, employers, employees, and above all to your significant other. Whatever or whomever you commit to is your sole (and soul) focus. As a BLUE, you love to serve and will give freely of yourself in order to nurture the lives of others.

BLUES have distinct preferences and are the most controlling of the four personalities, although they may not acknowledge (or even realize) the fact. Your code of ethics is remarkably strong and you expect others (not only your partner and those closest to you, but everyone) to live honest, committed lives as well. You enjoy sharing meaningful moments in conversation with your partner as well as remembering special life events (e.g. birthdays and anniversaries).

Yawns. Although I won't deny it. (C'mon, where on earth will you find personality test that says you are a bastard?)

feeling Triumphant

no no no not that brand of Bra, just... haha not to that great an extend of being really triumphant, but a little bit proud of myself that's all.

Today is the official start of out tutorials. Hmm.. had Critical Thinking & Writing. During the tutorial we were supposed to group into 3s and discuss about some articles, spot their arguments and assumptions and blah blah. That guy in my group kinda pissed me off. In a discussion, do you always have to dismiss other people's opinions? You always think that your opinions are always right? I thought I'm enough of a sturborn freak but here I am getting pissed by someone. Dismissing someone's view right from within the first 0.00000001 second is an instant turn-off.

But, surprise surprise Siu Hang was able to give some very good answers~ *grin grin*, spotted some implicit assumptions (picking on people's words is what I like to do.. so much for playing with words.. ) and I even managed to challenge the author's claim (they were trying to mislead us with similar articles by the same author, but I spotted the different title and different media.. one was in Newsweek and the other in Washington Post) That kind of shocked the class... "oh yeah hor!" The tutor was speechless....... Sorry Mrs Jaidev~

Found some interesting quote in the article though,

And even elite schools have dimwits and deadbeats.... Companies prefer the competent from Podunk to the incompetent from Princeton. If you can't (or won't) take advantage of what Princeton offers, Princeton does no good. What students bring to college matters more than what colleges bring to students.
--- Robert Samuelson, October 1999

So... guess no matter how hard this NUS undergraduate (aka Siu Hang) studies, he still may not find a good life. So I should slack, shouldn't I? =P

the Logic of Emotion

Mood really changes fast within a day. Luckily I blogged my previous entry earlier, cos last night was really bad.. couldn't sleep.. what happened? I went to read her blog...
Really stupid of me, shouldn't have read her blog. (but the question of 'should have' or 'shouldn't have' is really a silly one. Yeah yeah maybe I should've bought the lottery winning numbers.. ) Hmm it felt kinda sour when I read her entry about her trip to Singapore.

Oh I was chatting with her as well, and suddenly she asked me some translation. Obviously those were not academic questions, just comments to be used in a chat between someone who doesn't understand Cantonese and someone who doesn't know how to express herself in English and Hanyu Pinyin. Hmm... hahaha must be the same sentiment when you give your enemy a hand in stabbing yourself.

Silly me. Did chat with Jasmine about it as well, and she told me something that sound very logical. I told her I've already given up, and Jasmine said, "since you have given up, why do u still feel sad about it?" Sound logical, but human beings are not made up of logic circuit.. we have flesh and blood as well. Since college I've already lost my fighting spirit. I hate competition of any form. Just like you always see me lazing around at the foot of the rock wall, and Alex doesn't help by always pushing me to be the first to climb.. "come Chow, 5th lane white route". Compare to Jason who would say things like "If Chow can reach the top I can reach also lor".... yes yes climb on.... yawns. TeamNUS? Don't even think about it.

This sort of link to the friendship thingy that every other blog is talking about. What I've told Alex is that it is like a good show, with good beginning and good ending. It may not be the true side of it all, but the whole story will still be a happy story. Truth, is truth really that important? Given a choice, would you want to hear a sad reality, or a happy lie? I would want a happy lie, and I wish I will not know the truth even till the end of it.

The problem facing Alex is quite a food for thought for me too. If you treat someone as a good friend but he doesn't treat you equally good, how should you react? Hmm.. maybe that someone's standard of good friend doesn't equate to your standard. But nevertheless, you treat someone nicely not because you want to have something in return right? Easier said than done. Human beings are not that ideal, not even close to it. Like how Tong told me, what is the use of being a gentleman when you are not happy?

nikki was asking me, when will I wipe her off from my MSN contact list. Good question. That brings me to wonder how can those freaks in Friendster manage to have thousands over friends. "Friends"? What an overly used word, often abused and devalued. Nevermind, they can choose how they want to live their life, but I ain't going to stain that sacred word spelt F-R-I-E-N-D. Some people will understand what I really mean. Words like 'colleagues', 'schoolmates' would be more factual and you can't go wrong with using them, though you may lose that taste of affection.

My lecturer was talking about "sworn sisterhoold" during my Sociology lecture. Maybe I should have a "sworn brotherhood", then I don't need to bother so much. Actually when a person is bored, his mind will just wander everywhere. Feeling quite back to myself today after doing some mathematics.

I was saying I wish I can build a bouldering wall in my home....

the rain doesn't stop me from climbing

Today went climbing with Wongsan and Dave. Now rock climbing seems to be like a weekly thing for me, if not bi-weekly, and very much has become a lifestlye for me. Hmm went to ShopNSave for a walk while waiting for them to arrive, and when I stepped out, RAIN! (yes yes It's Raining Man, Halleluja) Guess the look of disappointment must be written all over my face.

While Wongsan and Dave were eating their breakfast at S11, a stray cat seemed pretty interested in me, it kept rubbing itself against my leg... leaning on me lazily... it was kinda sweet (not the taste of the cat!!), but I just don't understand why do cats like me. Even the cats near my home like me, so it wasn't the first time... hmm I won't say I like cats, but neither do I hate them. If my parents were around, the cat surely had no chance of getting close...The thing about cats is that they are kinda exploitary. Once you can't give them what they want, they won't hesitate to leave you. Are women like that too?

Ok back to climbing. So we were sitting there discussing what to do next. After some persuading Alex finally agreed to go Climb Adventure. (I have waited for this answer for... a year?) He asked Nicole whether she wanted to join us, and I jokingly said if she doesn't appear we won't ask her out for climbing anymore. Argh 王八蛋 was her reply.....

Got kinda shocked when we reached Climb Adventure, cos there were so many kids! But the overall atmosphere was kinda warm, cos there were so many happy faces! Hmm it was kinda fun cos the routes were rather boulderish, so it demanded a lot of techniques even for innocent-looking walls. Was quite surprised that Dave bought some climbing gear after we brought him to his first climb last Saturday. Hope he can keep the passion going~

Actually I see climbing as a way to tackle teens problem. If teens are occupied by hobbies, then they won't even think of bad habits like drugs and other crimes. When you are up on the wall, you only think of your moves. Even for me, climbing helps me blow away my troubles and unhappiness. Hmm... but then again, climbing is a risk sports, so.... taking drugs may seem more convenient. -_-'

After the climb Dave had to rush off to give tuition, so left with me and Wongsan for lunch, a pretty late lunch that ended at 3pm. In between sips of sugarcane juice and lime water (no! lime juice) we talked about a lot of things... friends, purpose in life, etc etc... these seems to be never-ending topics that one can discuss until the cow comes home,

but if only life could have been simpler...

My helpline is always open

Was looking at my MSN contact list, and saw SQ had the words "Sadz" beside his name... Out of kapo-ness I msg him and asked what happened.... (this is how we should spot our friends' problems from tiny little details..)

hmm.. SQ just broke with his girl friend... relationship of around 3-4 yrs? Reason: different frequency. Real Reason: different religion. She is a Christian and he is not. (I respect religion for what it is, but... ) So I went on to talk to SQ about it, and tried to direct his attention away by talking cock with him... hmm the fact that he can talk cock means he has recovered quite a bit from that love wound~ Oh I chatted on with him about the navy.. (he's a naval officer, commissioned by HM the Queen) That sure made him feel helluva better. Then dunno why he took turn to console me also.. (err... I'm okay for sometime already, so.. thanks)

Here is something I read from my sociology materials, which seem kinda sad:

Odd though it might seem, the best way to maximize the chances of getting married, for both sexes, is to have been married before! People who have been married and divorced are more likely to marry again than single people in comparable age groups are to marry for the first time.--- Anthony Giddens

Does that mean, we shouldn't take our first relationship so hard??

NUS my ASS!

ok la.. actually was supposed to blog this earlier... cos was super pissed yesterday.. but since now the thing has been resolved, and I got what I want, so.... less gun powder lor...

Ok we've got this thing called CORS online bidding. We're supposed to bid for modules, lectures and tutorials. So basically we need to bid for our time table (vs NTU where they do it in a first-come-first-serve manner) Yesterday we were supposed to ballot for our tutorials from 9am to 5pm... end up the thing was extended to till today 9am!!!! 24 hrs of bidding...

And do you know why?? Cos the system sucks! Everyone frantically tried to log in.. and no one got logged in~! Imagine a whole meat ball of ants stuck at the bottleneck, all eager to get out of the bottle.... eeek...

I tried to log in from home at 9am (sharp!).. couldn't get in.. and Wongsan our dear computer engineer suggested I go to school to use the LAN.. so being the obedient soldier I am, I went to school...... still cannot.... there must be a problem somewhere......

Lectures ended.. went to the lab to try, still couldnot.... went home tried... still cannot....... after dinner....... ermm.. 9pm bingo~ Wow... took me 12 hrs to register for 1 freaking tutorial class...

They still call themselves world class university?? You mean this is the first time they encounter such things?? Unbelievable. Anyway as a side note, I was reading up on world university ranking the other day, and I realized NUS is in the 120 range..... and within Asia, top 20 (sorry, NTU and ALL the universities in Hong Kong and China are nowhere to be found) something that should be proud of.. but then..... small things do screw up and piss people off.

Don't squeeze my BaLL!!

hmm... don't get shocked by my title, yes someone squeezed my ball and I ain't happy about it!
Yesterday I didn't have lecture at all, so in the afternoon I brought my father to take a walk in NUS. Pretty scary walk, we alighted at Engineering Faculty, took a walk to Yusof Ishak House, and then to Sports and Recreation Centre, then to Science Facualty, had a tea break at the all-time favourite Science canteen, then took a shuttle to Kent Vale....... from there my father planned to go to the new National Library, so we walked from Kent Vale to Kent Ridge Terminal, and I saw him off before I head back into campus for the real fun...... ho ho ho..

It was the welcome tea session of the Climbing Sub-Club. I saw some familiar faces at the rock gym~ KS my senior back in JC, who bouldered with me very often~ then Alvin, whom I met at ClimbAsia once, and Sheryl, whom our gang met at SAFRA Yishun last Saturday. hmm... as for the year one freshies, I saw Andy, my BMT section mate (he squeezed my ball. I shall explain later), Kumaran, a fellow Foxtrot cadet who completed Ranger course but not awarded the Ranger recognition (some usual politics, heard before)

Ok this Andy fella, he kept using my chalk!!! Ok I'm the kind of person who has a very strong territorial sense. Whatever is mine I will be all out to protect, but sometimes friend friend you've got to relax right? Sigh... but... my favourite Franklin chalkball!!! I just refilled it last week... nice and full.... and was happily bouldering in the NUS rock gym... sigh... I mean... you don't share your undergarments with someone else right? And I myself don't squeeze my chalkball so hard, but HE! machiam like squeezing sponge! What the.... what I can say is that if you don't respect other people's property, you don't really respect that person...

Anyway, so much for balls.. yah KS and Alvin was asking me to join TeamNUS. ermm.. I think I'm not up to it... and I climb for the fun of it, not to win (nor lose) But I will join the club for sure, afterall where to find a place where I can boulder like mad (I used to be that mad back in JC) But last night was... ermm.... demoralizing for me. Hahaha at first when I was the only yr 1 guy in the gym, I played with the seniors, and managed to clear quite a lot of the routes, then later when the crowd got bigger, I realize I was too pumped to climb any route, even those that I had cleared earlier on... so I was there looking stupid, like a newbie minus the point that I have shoes and chalkbag...

Saturday I got my right arm pumped... now my fingers are gone... oh, just some news on my crater on my left hand... it starts to have paste when it is not dry... pretty scary... think I should take care of my wounds.
(anyway now I'm in school waiting for the stupid server to wake up its idea)

Me and my Hello Kitty

Latest news: My Hello Kitty saved someone...
ermm... that was kinda lame, the latest of the series of news with regards to my limited edition Kalashnikitty.
What happened was, dear Nikki was happily chatting with chillycraps, then Nikki's mum appear in the scene and ask her if she is chatting with guys.... and dear Nikki replied that she was chatting with a girl... "see? Hello Kitty~"
wow.

Of course that was not the only news of the week with regards to Hello Kitty. Mr Dave was shocked by the sudden guest appearance of Kalashnikitty, and has requested for MajDevilDazKitty........ ermm....... *censored for DJ Niwde*

What ever the case.... arghh now I'm in school waiting for the climbing session to start!!! And the stupid printer can't print my assignments!!

that was week one in End You Ass

Well done soldier, I've just survived 1 week in NUS... 4 more yrs to go....
Ok la, so far I've been mixing with people who are serious students... of cos maybe some may deviate a bit, but on the whole I'm the most noisy among them.. so what can be worse??
Ha do you know that there are some gungho students around?? There was this lecture, a guy sitting beside me had a cassette recorder recording the lecture... and all this while i was crapping noisily with my friends... then i saw this guy was eyeing me with those du-lan face.. muhahahaha he must have recorded all my craps instead of the lecturer!!! What can I do... crap for him one more time is it??
Hmm so far, school isn't that exciting... but I'm going to overcome that...... I am really ready to be a super nerd.. but ... Alex is there to stop me from becoming one, with his climbing sessions..... wow today was quite crappy..... Nicole and Dave..... I can't believe it I actually down-climb just because I don't quite trust my life with Dave.. sorry man, trust has to be earned~ but overall, today my first climb was the only good one... inclined yellow route seconding... the rest of my attempts were all crap..... haiz....

Bleh..... killing me softly...

wah lao damn tired leh!!! Now everyday come home must read notes off the computer screen.... Firstly dunno why they don't have hard copy in the printing shop, secondly my printer can't handle the load, thirdly prinitng in the school comp lab is quite expensive!!! Wat to do... suck thumb....
Wah lao today sociology lecture really almost felt asleep... ok my neighbouring guy did... I mean it is all words and words and words... what to do..... such thumb...
And at last, today the queue at Co-op isn't that long... but i decided not to buy the one book there... cos... Clementi sell almost same price, have wrapping... (you may call it FOC, or like IKEA put it, it's included in the price tag) But I am happy paying more for better service... you can say i'm pissed off with co-op... or you can say i'm mad.... have queue want to buy, no queue refuse to buy..... but in this society, someone has to earn that extra money.... you spend money because someone needs to earn it...... something like that lah....Oh i always call up Clementi Bookstore and disturb the ladies there.. hahaha..... but i'll give 3 thumbs up for Clementi Bookstore lah.....
One week into lectures and i'm already dying...... i can't imagine 4 yrs... (maybe that proves that my first yr is far from being honeymoon yr...)

Lamebo: First Blood....

yeah yeah.... yesterday was my first lesson.... 2 hr lecture on Statics and Mechanics of Materials. The lecture was quite ok, since it was an introductory lesson on the requirement and learning outcome of the module. Luckily the lecturer wasn't that boring, and luckily I was sitting with my ODAC friend.....
Engineering really has zer0 gals! ERmm... around 1 out of 20 bah.. and the gals are all PRC scholars! well.... ok... I'm there to learn, not there to flirt... anyway I dun flirt~

Hmm... went to Science Fac to have lunch... and really helluva difference! GALS! ermm... okay....
Back to Engineering Fac... the Co-op is always packed.... how to buy books?!?!?!?!?!!
well well....... maybe I should buy second hand books.... more environmental friendly mah~ dun you think so?

Anyway after school I rushed to Airport to fetch my father... kinda dramatic cos I was really late, but didn't know JetStar also quite late.. haha..... so I managed to receive him at the airport~ What if it was those love drama where I rush to airport to see gal off... ermm... someone please knock some sense back to me~

Let me see what have i done....

Someone complained that I didnot update my blog.... c'mon, if nothing interesting happened, then what is there to update? Just write date? Time? What was for lunch? Dinner? How many cups of water I drank? etc etc...

On Friday I went to the National Library... was pretty disappointed actually... from the outside you think that it is such a gigantic structure.. then you realize that the public section is at B1.... so what was that huge portion above ground for? (or did they intend to use the underground part as air raid shelter??) The next disappointing part is, the racks are empty!!! Ok the non-fiction collection was pretty impressive, but the fictino and magazine section is like...... 1/10 full only!! The most lame part was the magazine section, they label the names on the racks but there ain't no magazines!! What is going on?? I could have just gone to Ang Mo Kio Regional Library!! But one thing.... there are lotsa office ladies.... tsk tsk~!

Hmm.... Saturday.... surprise surprise, I went play badminton with my brother and his YEP friends... dunno why I decided to join them... The place was Toa Payoh Stadium.... ok kinda weird cos a lot of their friends didn't turn up, so we only totalled up 4 pax, just nice for the game (what if i didn't join...) One of my bro's friends is pretty crappy..... and of cos got aimed by my bro...
Now I'm all aching.... thanks to those running around in the court... (yeah yeah my bro still say i lousy so easily have muscle ache... ask him try rock climbing la.. I think he won't even clench his fist!)

First to Bata then pong School....

well well.... i've got enuff screwing from people.... dear Wongsan is one of them.... Nancy is another one.. (on she is not that stranger girl..) My bro is another one....
k this is what happened... yesterday was the Freshmen Inauguration Ceremony... there was absolutely NO notice on the venue or the time... and I DID take the initiative to search through Google for the info... got that, 10am Cultural Centre.... so I took bus... packed like sardines in can (but Ngee Ann poly girls are worth the bus fare)
I reach that sacred place called NUS... went to the office to do some stuffs....... then I headed towards the venue.... horror roams me as I see all strange faces.... some even dressed in working attire.... tiao.... so I paniced... kept calling people.... and what I got? All of them stayed home...
C'mon, I'm not gonna go in and sit there like a zombie....
So foolishly, I went home.. cooked instant noodle......
Got screwed left right centre.... brother said it was once in a life time... how many times do I want to go university...... sigh....... that turned on the guilt factor..........
Wongsan said don't skip or wad... please, it ain't lecture... the most the principal has one less audience that's all.... if it is lecture, I sit in front of projector also will do it lor... (ermm.. u believe ar)
The rest of the week also don't need to go school lor... freakin orientation week....
Now come to think of it, NTU seems better leh.... at least not everything initiative mah......
Bless your enemy.....