think on THE spot

When you guys sit on the toilet bowl, do you tend to think a lot? {perfect posture, that's Rodin's most famous artwork "The Thinker" (1880-1882)}

This morning I was sitting on the toilet bowl, then out of nowhere my mind started to think of the scenario where I fall to my death while rockclimbing, then I use my last breath to mutter the line "xxxxxx I love you..."

Isn't it more practical to use my last breath to scold the belayer for not locking his carabiner?!?!?!?!

Talking about climbing, call me childish, call me immature, but I really don't feel like going down to Yishun if Jason will be there. Yes maybe his presence can amuse Nicholl, but I know I won't enjoy the day. Hmm then I'll go climbing with Meder on weekday nights, somemore can climb with Norwegian and German girls~ hahaha! I may seem neutral on the surface, but really I don't like the idea of climbing with Jason. I know who I can entrust my life with and who cannot. Experience can be gained, but not attitude and personality. NOT HIS.

This afternoon ran through Nikki's year 2000 Alevel English paper. Alex asked me before why am I doing this for her/why she didn't ask her bf English. Hmm.. her bf may be busy? She looks up upon me? Maybe cos I just enjoy helping her? Maybe cos I learn a lot in the process as well?? Aww why must we complicate everything?

Anyway, history repeats itself today. After I read about that MSN nick that I mentioned in my previous entry yesterday, I actually itchy went to see her Friendster profile this afternoon.... "In a relationship" ARGH hahaha really once bitten twice still not shy! But this time round I don't feel hurt at all, maybe cos from the beginning I didn't think of being with her, so... or maybe I've grown stronger from the previous one. But anyway as though playing a joke on myself, the sound of "O Fortuna" was ringing in my head... LOL.

Just don't understand, why my love for rock climbing can't fill my lack of relationship...