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How dumb can I be? Stephanie wanted to ask me out for a movie yesterday. This time round is explicit, not like last Saturday's hint hint kind of ask. She said she was super bored, so just wanted to watch movie. Well... I suggested Aeon Flux but she wouldn't make it on time since she hadn't have her lunch (it was 1:30pm) So we sort of dropped the idea of going to cinema. Anyway I don't really like going to cinema.

Then she suggested renting a movie. But we need a place to watch it right? So it's either her place or my place. Then she asked "If I go to your place, can I trust you enough?" "NO!" Ermm... it is important to know what you can control and what you can't. True that there is a lack of self-confidence in me, but if you know you may do bad things, might as well deny yourself the chance to do the bad things. If she comes it would be like a small fish swimming into the mouth of a sperm-whale. Pun intended.
So I started a game of MSN minesweeper with her. First time I used my brains since the end of exam (maybe even longer) I won her twice and felt a bit bad about it, cos she isn't that good in the game and I felt like I was bullying her. Anyway she said she will win me the next time round =)

Then she asked again... wanna rent movie?
Ermm.. no.