feeling a bit guilty...
how how how?? I've made a decision and I feel guilty about it...
The climbing sub-club is going to clean up the rock gym this Friday and Saturday, and supposedly the IVP team and some alumnus will be heading down. Then I receive an email from June Kiat the ex- club president, asking if I'm free to go down. On the recipient's list there are only 3 names: me, Jensen and another person.
I was thinking, of the dunno hundreds over members, why the 3 of us? Just because we are a little more active? (now I regret having contributed articles to the mailing list) Like I've said before, I don't quite like the club. Not the whole club but some people. I see my existence in the club as purely for using the facilities. (maybe that is enough a reason for me to join in the cleaning) But when I think of some year 1 IVP team member asking me at Yishun what was I doing there, I can't help feeling a little pissed. Sorry, I am an expert in holding grudges.
Sigh.. I bring shame to the human race again.
The climbing sub-club is going to clean up the rock gym this Friday and Saturday, and supposedly the IVP team and some alumnus will be heading down. Then I receive an email from June Kiat the ex- club president, asking if I'm free to go down. On the recipient's list there are only 3 names: me, Jensen and another person.
I was thinking, of the dunno hundreds over members, why the 3 of us? Just because we are a little more active? (now I regret having contributed articles to the mailing list) Like I've said before, I don't quite like the club. Not the whole club but some people. I see my existence in the club as purely for using the facilities. (maybe that is enough a reason for me to join in the cleaning) But when I think of some year 1 IVP team member asking me at Yishun what was I doing there, I can't help feeling a little pissed. Sorry, I am an expert in holding grudges.
Sigh.. I bring shame to the human race again.
crap posted by chillycraps at
9:12 AM
4 Comments:
haha, now got time so comment abit more.
I think its good if you got the time to go down and help out la. You might think that no pt coz you don't like the people.
But in a way, you should contribute to the facilities that you are using too rite? Esp school facilities. :)
By
Alex Wong, at 12/01/2005 09:38:00 PM
too late. Have appointment liao.
I know it is wrong thinking, but still I've convinced myself that I should treat it as a free version of climbasia. Kinda selfish right?
human beings are self-serving. How many people can actually achieve "above self, beyond duty (,many extras)"?
By
chillycraps, at 12/02/2005 09:27:00 AM
not really la, sometimes its different because you would have a kinda ownership once you contribute to it. Dunnoe how to say. Haha.
By
Alex Wong, at 12/02/2005 02:12:00 PM
i know what u mean, cos half of me thinks that way.
looks like the other half of me won.
By
chillycraps, at 12/02/2005 08:47:00 PM
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