the lizard that strays away

The climb wasn't that nice.

Went to ClimbAsia after school and bouldered with Meder, Nicholl and Ying Huei. I decided to go climb today cos I have been looking at schoolwork for too long and I wanted to meet up with my friends.

I just needed a place to vent my frustration.
It ended up bringing me more frustration.

I haven't been climbing for TOO long, so there wasn't any form so as to speak of. My mind wasn't on climbing at all, it was on schoolwork. Tell me how to enjoy the climb?

Their expectation was different too. I intended to just play for a while and then go home, but they treated it as a training. I really didn't like a bit of it when Nicholl kept telling me to climb harder. Her way of encouragement was in the form of condemning you.

Alex wasn't there. I remember the other time Alex felt quite bad when I told him that I felt like he was forcing me to climb harder.

A lot of the times I'm scared of going out in a group, cos in a group you can't act on your own. What you do will have an impact on the whole group. It is like, I really wanted to leave early just now, cos they had no intention of leaving, but that would have spoilt their mood. I was like a kid protesting to go home... (the thought of a 8am lecture the next day wasn't welcoming)

Now I'm a little scared of climbing with them... again.